New spring bloomed over, one more summer is about to end and we are meeting fall season soon. The last year was pretty much lost for me. Chronic pain is not something to laugh about. While there are numerous ways trying to deal with pain, there are times when absolutely nothing helps and makes one miserable. I spent this year reading a lot to create distraction from sometimes unbearable pain. I have read in average one book every two days, here and there even a book a day when sleep was avoiding me.

This was also a year when I didn’t plant anything, I just couldn’t move around. As you know while gardening is extremely therapeutic, it also requires physical strength. Therefore, I had only flowers and plants which just simply grow on their own and appear every year again like new. We had gooseberries, red currant berries, sage and thyme and all flowers did well. I am very grateful that this summer had good weather without any major heat waves and storms, therefore, I could spend a lot of time outdoors. Just thinking about all places where I will never be.

Looking forward to better times, and here’s is a recent poem:
To sit down and dream a bit
About all places where I cannot be
To sit down and breathe in the night air
The fragrance of blooms and see
All things which I will never in reality
To sit down and remember what never was
To paint the clouds and summer night
To sit down and cry internally
To capture the wind and have no pain
To make this my own eternity
To dream a bit, cry a bit, believe a bit
Breathe in the fragrance of grasses and blooms
Not even move, just sit in the middle of silence And understand it’s all that there ever will be

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A lovely and sad poem. I’m sorry to hear you are feeling so much pain. Sending virtual smiles and warm hugs!☺🤗💐
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Thanks very much Tiffany!
Well, I simply realized what my shortages are. I”m not depressed or something, but the pain is a factor which takes away from doing many things, especially walking. There’s slight improvement, but I have hard times getting anywhere still.
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I’m so sorry to hear how difficult this past year has been for you,Inese!!! Chronic pain can be so debilitating, especially when it takes you away from the things you love doing. Your poem touched me too. That longing to dream, to breathe in the fragrance of the garden, and simply sit within the quiet feels especially poignant after the year you have experienced. I hope the coming year brings gentler days and more opportunities to enjoy the things that give you pleasure. Your photographs are absolutely lovely! So full of life and colour. It is wonderful to see you back.🤗🤗🤗
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Thank you very much Rebecca!
It was very tough year. I am doing better, that’s why I was able to post something after the long interruption.
The poem kind of wrote itself. I think flying or sitting in a car for a while is still out of question. Therefore, I am glad I can come outdoors and enjoy the good weather.
I hope it won’t take a year to post the next update!
Have a nice rest of summer!
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