New spring bloomed over, one more summer is about to end and we are meeting fall season soon. The last year was pretty much lost for me. Chronic pain is not something to laugh about. While there are numerous ways trying to deal with pain, there are times when absolutely nothing helps and makes one miserable. I spent this year reading a lot to create distraction from sometimes unbearable pain. I have read in average one book every two days, here and there even a book a day when sleep was avoiding me.

This was also a year when I didn’t plant anything, I just couldn’t move around. As you know while gardening is extremely therapeutic, it also requires physical strength. Therefore, I had only flowers and plants which just simply grow on their own and appear every year again like new. We had gooseberries, red currant berries, sage and thyme and all flowers did well. I am very grateful that this summer had good weather without any major heat waves and storms, therefore, I could spend a lot of time outdoors. Just thinking about all places where I will never be.

Looking forward to better times, and here’s is a recent poem:

To sit down and dream a bit

About all places where I cannot be

To sit down and breathe in the night air

The fragrance of blooms and see

All things which I will never in reality

To sit down and remember what never was

To paint the clouds and summer night

To sit down and cry internally

To capture the wind and have no pain

To make this my own eternity

To dream a bit, cry a bit, believe a bit

Breathe in the fragrance of grasses and blooms

Not even move, just sit in the middle of silence And understand it’s all that there ever will be

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