It takes a lifetime to understand what you want

It’s time to pick up myself and get out of the wintery lethargy. It feels today that we are definitely getting closer to spring. It’s like waking up from an extremely long snooze. I didn’t enjoy winter even as a kid. It is tolerable until Christmas, but when the days are so bleak, dull and grey, I have no desire to do anything. I still painted, spring especially, and read numerous books.

Generally, I am like a tree. I shed my beautiful leaves in the fall, with huge regret so, I must say, and I am overwhelmed by the dread of the nearing winter. At this moment, end of February, I am starting to feel that life juices will be running through limbs soon. Once the buds start to open it’s not long till the first leaves and blooms come. Then it’s up to maturity and harvest in the last warm sunshine. That’s my natural cycle of the year.

While this place where we reside isn’t very suitable for growing anything indoors, I do that nevertheless. There are plants which do fairly well and even very well in half-light. Some plants can survive without any direct light. I do love my African violets; they have a small extra space at the South looking window. It’s a tiny space, but enough for my violets. The purple one is 20 years old. Isn’t that amazing?

What do I want from life at the moment? More stability and predictability, less worries, less pain. What happens to the huge goals? Well, I have come to conclusion that doing one’s best is definitely enough. My goals are very realistic; sell more paintings, give more art classes, make a decent living out of that. That’s within my reach and pretty much happening already.

All the best and thanks for visiting my blog which was left unattended for a while!

16 thoughts on “It takes a lifetime to understand what you want

  1. Wonderful Inese, that the African Violet is 20 years old… 🙂 I know we have a Christmas/ Easter Cactus that is at least that, Its been propagated so many times and given away as new plants, yet the old one still gives me blooms around Christmas time.

    Lovely painting and spring flowers of tulips Inese…
    Wishing you well as Spring brings us all new life.. ❤ xx

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    1. I had 4 of them, long-time survivors, but a few were destroyed by chipmunk.
      I had taken them outdoors which I shouldn’t have done. The one survivor needs replanting desperately, and as soon as I have soil I will do that.
      What took me through the most difficult times is reading, I read like a book every single day for many months, and then I gradually started to paint and draw as soon as I could sit and stand for a bit of time.
      I’m back big time, and hope posting more frequently.
      I so much enjoy your posts, but didn’t comment yet, I probably at some moment will.
      Thanks very much dear friend!

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  2. With the coming of spring comes new life, and hope. Doing one’s personal best is a good goal, to get up and best the best person one can be, that day. Each day can bring new challenges.

    I love African violets, and have propagated many from the original on I bought back in 1993.

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    1. Definitely so, new hope and new life. I personally cannot wait to get outdoors and start doing something.
      I’m still busy indoors with very many art classes, but who doesn’t need fresh air and sunshine?
      I suppose, you will enjoy spring faster in your area, but, nevertheless, we will get there, too.
      African violets really can live for very many years. Amazing and beautiful plant, pleasure to look at and extremely patient when it comes to care.
      Have a good spring Lavinia! So nice to exchange a few words with you again!

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  3. I agree wholeheartedly, Inese!! It does take a lifetime to understand what we truly want. My mother is now 94 and requires 24/7 care. I have spent wonderful times with her these past months and realize how precious life has been for me. I am truly grateful for our connection. It is good to see you in my reader again. Hugs!

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    1. Thanks Rebecca!
      It’s a great privilege to reach old age, especially when one is already past 94. Whatever somebody faces at that age, is still God’s gift. Lots of people never live long enough to enjoy peacefulness and wisdom of old age.
      It’s also incredibly fantastic to stay mobile, have bright and sharp mind and keep being busy. I assume I’m just somewhere 2/3 down, and have plenty ahead.
      I hope being like my ancestors and staying fit for a very long time. Great grandma reached 107.
      It’s also wonderful to enjoy everything even when it’s not something exotic or exclusively posh.
      All the best to you!

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      1. Oh my goodness, Inese! 107 years old. I can only imagine the stories that she could tell you. My grandfather was born 1901. We watched the first moon landing together. He said to me, when I was a child my family used a horse and cart. Then a few years later, I saw the first car and now I have seen a man land on the moon. Sending all the very best back to you!!!

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  4. Dear Inese,

    I’m reading this blog post several months late, and winter has definitely ended by now. I hope the increased light and warmer temperatures have made your life blood flow again and that your branches have fully leafed out.

    Happy June to you,

    Tanja

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    1. Thanks Tanja!
      Everything is green since I live in the middle of town, but am surrounded by an old park. This house is like some 200 years old.
      I’ve been planting as much as the weather permits since we had an extra cold may. Things are looking up now.
      I hope you are doing fine, although, I’m not sure where exactly you live. Regardless, most of the planet should be fairly warm by now.

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